My Abba

AHHHHHHH!!!

Stress is not my friend,

when I am stressed I fall apart,

into a big mushy mess on the floor,

soaked in tears and hugging my blanket around me.

My blanket,

has soaked up many many tears,

it acts as a sheild, and a vanishing cloak,

it hasn't failed me.

It hasn't failed me,

like my Lord, and Abba Father will never fail me.

There is a difference though,

eventually my blanket will be ridden with holes,

and no longer able to protect, and comfort.

But My Abba Father,

has always, is, and will always be here.

My Abba Father is like my blanket,

warm and comforting, and always willing to listen.

He wraps me in his arms and keeps me warm,

he holds me against His chest and allows my tears to fall.

And unlike my blanket,

He always knows when it's time for me to stop,

and be the Strong, Beautiful Woman He has created me to be.

You

When you talk to me, even just a few words, it takes me by surprise

and takes my breath away,

My knots have slowly but surely subsided, they are tempted to come back,

but for now are safely out of reach

I want to know more of you, I know a little, but I want More.

that is hard, because I become shy and hide

or loud and stupid, or just, not Me.

I don't want that to be me anymore, I want the real me to shine.

It's Exhausting

Trying to be independent

But you won't let me

Everytime I let go and am ready to jump, you grab on tight

I haven't found the balance yet

I've felt like I've been close, but then it slips, and I feel like falling.

It's exhausting

I know it can be done

People everywhere have found it

So with Time, Pateince, Prayer, and Love

We shall find it too.

Monotone

you keep talking,

without changing your tone.

it's not high, or mean, or intense,

it's average, but it stays that way,

there's no excitement, or disappointment, there's almost no feeling at all.

that's only when you teach.

it's only the first day,

Lord give me strength, and patience, and understanding.

AH Yuck

Better Day

Feeling low is not much fun.

I should know, I've felt low many times.

Last night was the first in awhile, though.

It didn't last for long, once I gave it up to Him.

And today was a much better day.

Because of my heavenly Daddy.

He made my day special.

With a song in my heart waking up, play time at work, cookie baking, and best of all

The return of a best friend, and brother!

One small word

hmmm ...

saying it has never been easy

and when it has been said the recipient is not who they were thought to be

so it is gone about with caution and very seldom is it actually said

either to avoid ... awkwardness ... or pain.

There is one that it can be said to without hesitancy

and He is glad!

so I shall procede with caution on all fronts but one.

and that one shall grow to be bigger and better then just the small word that is avoided