2 years later

I logged in to write about something I've been learning and doing better at lately. I reread the last posting from August 2011 nearly two years ago, and found that it's topic was the same as I wanted to write about today.

Trust.

Trusting when things are going well or easy isn't hard to do. Trusting becomes hard when things are no longer in your control, when they aren't going so well and easy.

The last time I wrote was one of those times when I was no longer in control. I had not passed a semester in nursing school and was being set back to do it over again. At that time it was hard for me to trust His plan. I was angry with myself for letting my grades get away from me. I was scared that maybe I had misunderstood what He wanted me to do with my life. And I was tired, I was tired of studying, I was tired of being in school, and I was tired of being away from my family and friends.

Well the last two years turned out to be amazing and exactly what I needed. There was a lot of bad mixed in but there was so much good that my life has been changed for forever.

On the school front I finished Nursing school and am one week away from boards!
I forgave myself for messing up and found that even though I had messed up, I was still right exactly where I needed to be! There are so many things this last year alone that I would have missed out on had I done things according to plan. I am so glad that I did not miss out on them. I have been so blessed!

I learned, through many wonderful experiences, kind words from friends, observations from professors, and my own heart hearing God, that nursing is exactly what I am supposed to be doing when I grow up (which is rather soon).

The current thing I am trusting God for is perfect timing, and finding the perfect job for me! I haven't started looking, even though half my class already have jobs. Two months ago I would have told you I was getting nervous that I hadn't started looking, and that I needed to find something. But that was just the pressure of everyone else's time line pushing on mine. I decided that I was going to Let Go and Let God, because I'm doing it For Him, With Him! Also because when the job is open and the time is right I will get the job that is meant for me. So why rush it? right now it is more important to study for boards and to trust God to do His thing! It's hard, but if my past shows me anything at all it's that it is so totally trusting and worth letting God take control and show me what he wants for my life!